under pressure

- category: observations -

"...Pressure pushing down on me
Pressing down on you no man ask for..."
- Under Pressure by Queen & David Bowie

Um boom ba bay..
Um boom ba bay...alright, I should stop. The fact is, I'm very much in the panic state right now. Not on the outside, but inside, it's just very hard to concentrate on one thing at a time. I 'don't feel my aura', as Johnny Weir put it. On a side note, I really don't give a damn about people trashing him about his uncomfortable feeling before he did his free skate program at the Olympics. I totally understand that, and I think many more people actually experience that in daily basis. They just don't want to admit it.

So, back to my inner panic state. I will be performing a 12-minute Javanese dance, which I still feel tired and uncertain every time I practised it, this weekend; I need to figure out (fast!) how to assemble the intricate, complicated dance costume; I need to find an apartment soon in Chicago for three months; I need to sell my things here; I need to help my boyfriend sell his things; I need to pack; I need to complete my registrations and all of that paperworks; I need to resign from my job; I need to sell my clothes; I need to reconstruct my blog; I have 5 blog posts pending right now; I really need something to eat right now....I'm so hungry.

In about a month - March 21 - I will be starting my MBA study in Chicago. I tried to prepare my best, but time and Goddess of Efficiency (if there's such thing) are just not on my side right now. As a result......my inner state of panic.

So...yeah..

Bye.