1 to 14

- this is a special entry for my boyfriend, christian -

1 to 14

Giddy
is when I know my call comes through,
anticipating your voice from the other side of the line...

Lazy
is when I experience complete blissfulness,
my head on your chest, listen to your peaceful heartbeat...

Safe
is when you put your arms around me,
enveloping me passionately, until my bones crack and I cannot breath...

Annoyed
is when you are pessimistic, you think you're not good enough,
when I know you're a "sleeping dragon",

Cat-like
is when you're spoiled and needy,
eyus eyus mwah mwah peyuk peyuk oaahhh,

Seduced
is when I stare at your sexy ass,
and you know I do it,

Repent
is when I realize I was wrong
and I hurt your feelings

Sensitive
is when you speak,
fragile and tired while brilliant and adorable,

Style
is when you pick up my clothes,
all of them I miss, but you bring them to light,

Possessive
is when you seem indifferent,
but you do not like me doing it,

Subtle
is when you show me you love me,
in the most unflashy ways,

Sunset
is for us holding hands, strolling and running on the beach,
sand swirling and us kissing,
and you teasing the seagulls' babies,

Halved
is after our kiss at the airport,
I know you leave and have to wait,
until you return my heart again,

Love
is knowing that things about you, I like.
Your exciting next year, you deserve.
Finding from 1 to 14 next time, we will.


- Mwah -

Heart/Ready

- category : about me/observation -

Almost all day yesterday, I was under the impression that it was September 7, not 8. So, I actually ALMOST violate my own promise on the previous post, which says that I will post something by September 9. Fuhh...

Anyway, sorry if this post is so dark.....it's what's I've been feeling lately, and I think it's important to acknowledge it and see how I feel in the future. Heh, until next time!

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Love, love, love, please take me away
hold me close beneath your calm beating heart
look at me with your graceful eyes
comfort me until I am ready...

Grieve, grieve, grieve, don't take me away
enough with your poisonous words and saddened heart
look at me, tears overflowing on my face
leave me, but you are not ready...

Rock, rock, the precious rock
your might conquered the impossible task
look at people around you, wounds deep in their heart
will you wait until they are ready...

My brain numb, my soul tired. For all I know,
everyday the sprinkler outside my room jolted awake at midnight
I stood awake long after it abruptly went to sleep
I know I need to lay down, but my heart is not ready...

Shall I take the holy water?
Strength fill me, compassion enlighten me

Peace

become me.

Will I take the holy water?

Until my heart

...ready.



-Fin-

...

I have so many things to say, and yet so little time.

Ever since I began my graduate study at Pepperdine,
the amount of work has been blowing my mind.

Please be patient and give me more time,
I vow I will make a new entry by September nine.

God help me.

-Fin-